Last night I dreamt I was a kid at my parent's house, and my friend and I were getting ready to catch the bus. The long country driveway was icy and really slippery, so we had our bookbags on the ground in in front of us and we were crawling/pushing the bookbags to get to the end of the driveway. All of the sudden we could see a bear in the woods on our right. My mom was on the deck behind us and yelled to point out that there was a bear. I heard and tried to go back, but it was hard to go quickly on the ice. I'm not sure if my friend couldn't hear us, or if she thought she could make it to the bus before the bear came. The bus pulled up at the end of the driveway and was watching the whole situation, but the bear got to my friend and was biting on her foot as she tried to pull back towards me and the house. Another school bus pulled up then too, and the bus drivers (there were four of them somehow) got out and as a group scared the bear away. I woke up then when my alarm went off, playing what I thought was a Green Day song. Turned out to be Smashing Pumpkins.
As an aside, the bus driver heroes were in the 'uniform' of the Carleton County man, the green workpants/workshirt combo, with workboots, warm plaid coats and blue work vests. It's a combo that I know and love because it reminds me of so many men I know and love. :) They seemed rough around the edges but I knew they cared for us deeply.
It reminded me how long it has been since I've had a 'bear dream'. I used to have them a lot. They were always some version of me watching/taking care of kids on my parents property, a bear coming from the woods at the edge of the yard, and me struggling to gather all of the kids into the house/safety. There were usually too many kids for me to just pick them up quickly and run. The bear dreams started way back when I was teenager, and came back intermittently through the years.
Last night's was similar, but quite different. I wasn't in charge of this person, worried mostly about getting myself to safety, watched the scene mostly as a spectator, and then she actually got bit! I'm not even sure who my friend was. She was just a girl my age in the dream, and now that I think of it, she turned into a he when we were inspecting her wounds. The kids in other dreams I always knew and loved, from my little cousins to my own kids as the years passed. They were often babies and toddlers, and I was always the only adult around. This bear was also a brown bear, when the others have always been black bears.
The Huffington Post talks about bear dreams in Dreams About Bears: Dream Meanings Explained, but I'm not sure it gave me much insight. This post about Animals in Dreams was really interesting, but it seems that the symbolism of bears is just very unclear. Protective motherhood? Possesive love? Introspection? Rage? Fears in general? Not sure. This one says it means I am avoiding a big issue in my life, and it is time to deal with it. Sigh... probably, lol.
And why the format change now? Weird.
Things that make you go hmm...
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